Wednesday, January 25, 2023

Calamity Jane Strikes Again

 


Yesterday was one of “those” days. You know the ones where nothing goes quite right?

 

First thing I planned to do was a quick load of laundry before heading out to gas up the car and make a Costco run.

 

I scooped up an armful of clothes from the bin, walked to the laundry room (which, if you must know, is only about three steps away) and shifted the clothes to one arm so I could snag a laundry pod from the container with the other. I tossed the pod in the washer and then tried the same maneuver on the container holding the Scent Booster beads.

 

Except the Scent Booster container requires two hands to open.

 

Oh, sure, I have – in the past – managed to open it one-handed. But it has always been an iffy proposition with the container almost, but not quite, tipping over.

 

Yesterday’s attempt resulted in disaster.

 


The pink beads went flying all over the washing machine, the floor, the rug and even on the carpet in the hallway.

 

Only then did I drop the clothes on the floor.

 

And then I uttered a few choice phrases before attempting to clean up the mess.

 

I had to shoo Maggie Minx out of the way lest she think the pink beads were some sort of new toy to play with or treat to sample. After I got the laundry in the machine and started it, I cleaned up all those blasted pink beads in the hallway and then started picking up as many as I could in the laundry room itself.

 


And then I…well…I turned off the light and shut the door to the laundry room.

 

Yeah, I admit it – I left the mess on the floor.

 

But, really, I was just being considerate of my dog. She absolutely despises the broom and dustpan as well as the vacuum cleaner. Either one will send her into a frenzy. And, frankly, my nerves couldn’t take her crazed barking just then.

 

Instead, I waited until later after we’d gone for our late afternoon walk and she was chowing down on her dinner. She didn’t even notice she was still attached to her leash that was connected to the pantry door.

 

So I furtively grabbed the broom and dustpan and quickly swept up the mess, shook out the rug and had it all back to rights by the time Maggie finished her kibble.

 

Whew!

 

But was that the only thing that went wrong yesterday?

 

Uh, no. No, it wasn’t.

 

After the laundry room debacle, I thought I’d shaken it off. I mean, hey – it’s a good indicator that I was rushing and needed to slow down. And, really, how difficult is it to simply place the laundry pod and the scent booster in the washing machine first – and then get the dirty clothes from the bin and place them in the washer?

 

Not difficult at all. So, okay – lesson learned.

 

Between Maggie’s third and fourth walk of the day, I left for Costco. While my list is shorter these days, I hadn’t been to Costco in a while so I had quite a few things on my list.

 

After I flashed my card at the sentry, I opened my purse to put my card back in my wallet and extract my list. Except my list wasn’t anywhere to be found. And then I realized that it must have been on the dining room table where I had left it.

 

Sigh.

 

While items like lettuce and chicken and paper towels were easy enough to remember, I had a slew of vitamins I needed to replenish. And I had no idea if I needed to buy Vitamin D3 or E or…was it C Complex?

 

I had no clue.

 

And, sure, I could’ve simply bought a bottle of multi-vitamins, which could have taken care of the problem, but I like doing things the hard way. Evidently.

 

Nevertheless, I kept calm and simply decided to wait to purchase vitamins on my next Costco trip. I had already filled my vitamin and supplement containers for the next two months, anyway, so I’m really in no big hurry to buy replacements. It was more a “top of mind” kind of thing.

 

I paid for my groceries, loaded them in the car and headed for home.

 

Now, I don’t know if you’re like me – but I hate making numerous trips from the car to the kitchen counter with my groceries. I try to make it in as few trips as humanly possible.

 

Except that I’m getting older. And while I used to be able to make it in one trip with bags lining my arms to my elbows, I know those days are long over.

 

Besides, I had no plastic bags. We’re talking Costco, remember?

 

Instead, I had a cloth bin with handles and a heavy-duty reusable shopping bag that held the bulk of my purchases. And I also had things in the trunk that had to be carried in separately. Like the paper towels.

 

So I had the shopping bag over one arm and the cloth bin with handles in the other. I hefted them out of the trunk and I was almost in the kitchen – when my arms gave out, I lost my grip – and both the bag and the bin landed on the floor in a big puddle.

 

Not literally, fortunately, as there was only one liquid item in the bag in the form of a bottle of balsamic vinegar.

 


By this point, I couldn’t even muster any outrage. As a matter of fact, I started laughing because, I mean, what else could I do? And my mirth was mostly from the quizzical look on Maggie’s face and her little tilted head as if she were trying to say, What the heck is the matter with you today, lady??

 

So I started picking up the mess. I was happy that nothing was broken or mooshed beyond repair, although the package of pita bread was a little squished since the bottle of balsamic vinegar landed on top of it.

 

But I was grateful that the pita softened the blow and the bottle of balsamic didn’t break. Small victories – right?

 

After all that, I figured I’d done enough damage for the day, so Maggie and I spent the rest of the evening ensconced on the couch watching Netflix. Well, Maggie snoozed next to me while I watched TV.

 

And today? Well, I’m happy to report that there have been no calamities in Jane’s Domain.

 

So far.

Wednesday, January 18, 2023

Happy Winter? Yes!


Earlier, I was out on my mid-morning walk with Maggie and we saw one of my neighbors on her own mid-morning stroll. She was by herself without any dog, so I was a little confused at first. People take strolls without a dog? Really?

 In January??

 

Fortunately, Holly is a Maggie fan and usually stops to give her lots of love and belly rubs when she sees her – so Maggie is, in turn, a Holly fan.

 

After a few minutes, when the petting frenzy was over and Maggie had finally settled down, Holly and I had a chance to chat for a bit.

 

We talked about the weather and I mentioned how I was supposed to have just returned from Maui, but the trip unfortunately had to be cancelled. And I joked that I’ve been trying to adjust to the fact that I’m not back with that golden Hawaiian Tropic glow right about now.

 

And then Holly said something that gave me pause. She said she absolutely loved Winter. She relishes snuggling under the covers and going to bed early since it gets dark so early. She catches up on sleep every winter. She takes it slow and easy and doesn’t schedule as many activities for herself during the wintertime. That we’re also a part of nature and it’s our time to refresh and renew.

 

Interesting.

 

I told her about my recent deliberate Sabbatical that seemed in line with what she was saying. And I agreed that it’s a good thing for us to pause and reflect on our lives and discover what’s important to us.

 


And catching up on sleep ain’t a bad thing, either. Sort of like those bears that hibernate in the winter.

 

But what really struck me about our conversation was Holly’s attitude about wintertime. She embraces it. And finds the joy in it.

 

I, like many people, am not a fan of winter. I don’t like the frigid temperatures. I really don’t like the snow and ice, particularly if I have to be walking or driving in it. And I am not fond of the drab, dreary days.

 

What can I say? I miss the sunshine.

 


And I’d really prefer not having to wear so many layers that I look like a frozen penguin on my obligatory Maggie walks.

 

But I also know that our attitude influences how we deal with life. And in the past few years I’ve also come to the realization that there are fewer days in front of me than behind me and I need to be grateful for every day I have on this Earth.

 

So I’m trying. I have lots of inside projects to work on this winter. After all, it’s a perfect time to do them – right?

 

To counteract the grey dreariness, I’ve been playing upbeat, happy music (think Jimmy Buffet and Bob Marley). I keep lots of lights on at home so I’m not huddled under the covers in the dark. And if I wasn’t worried that I’d bump into things, I’d slap on some sunglasses, don a Hawaiian shirt and mix up a batch of margaritas and pretend I was somewhere tropical. 

 

And when there is an occasional sunny day here in Ohio in January, I purposely spend time outside and immerse myself in those golden rays - even if it's freezing.

 

True, I don’t end the day with any sort of Hawaiian Tropic glow, but that’s okay since I always have on some sort of SPF anyway. Besides, there usually isn’t any exposed skin to glow up.

 


And, hey. Perhaps that sunglasses, Hawaiian shirt and margaritas idea has some merit. Ooh. A Luau in Jane's Domain. I like it!

 

But first, I wonder if I have any tequila…? Better go check.

 

Oh, and happy Winter, folks.

 

Saturday, January 7, 2023

Hit the Reset Button

 


I took a deliberate sabbatical this week. Seems weird – right? I mean, the first week of a New Year is supposed to be Go-Go-Go. You've gotta start on all those New Year’s Resolutions (if you made any).

 

It’s the big push to begin afresh in the new year.

 

If the Christmas decorations are still up, you need to take those down and pack them away for another year.

 

And if your fridge is still filled with holiday foods and leftovers, you need to clear those right on out to get started on that Keto / low carb/ meatless / no dairy, no gluten, no sugar / water-and-cardboard diet.

 

I even heard it’s supposed to be a no alcohol Dry January.

 

Aw, c’mon

 

Well, actually, it has been Dry January in Jane’s Domain insofar as I haven’t had a glass of wine all week. Not because I’m adhering to a “rule” some influencer set, but because I’ve been hermit-ing it this week and I don’t often have a drink when I’m home by myself.

 

Nothin’ sadder than a hermit sitting all alone in the dark bingeing on a bottle of Ménage à Trois Soft Red blend while simultaneously binge-watching Firefly Lane on Netflix.

 

But, seriously, I’ve gotta tell you – it has been a transforming week for me.

 

See, I was supposed to be on vacation these first two weeks of January, but we had to cancel the trip. Only I forgot to cancel Maggie Minx’ reservation at her little doggie Spa ‘n’ Play. Rather than lose the deposit, I decided to bring her there for a few days so we could get a mutual break. She can run and play with her doggie friends – as well as get a bath and a canine mani-pedi – and I can hit the “Reset” button.

 

The past seven years have been filled with dog-walking, dog-feeding and dog-tending responsibilities. Except when we were on vacation. And even then it’s usually a frenetic time of packing, traveling and adjusting to a new time zone or a different climate – until it’s time to do it all in reverse.

 

Don’t get me wrong – I love Maggie Minx. And I love to travel. Visiting new places and spending time with the people I care about is absolutely essential for my soul. But there is a kind of stress involved with vacations. 


I’m not the kind of person who nonchalantly tosses a few necessities in a duffel bag and takes off. Not without first making and revising numerous lists and piling clothes and accessories on the spare room bed weeks before the trip in anticipation of what I absolutely can’t travel without.

 

What can I tell you – I’m admittedly a little high maintenance. Vince knew it – and just let me be me. He’d even ask me for his list of Pre-Trip “to-do’s” and would get them done without complaint. What a guy.

 

Anyway.

 


This sabbatical has been good for me.

 

I’ve slept better this week than I have in a long time. I haven’t had to get up before I’m ready to get up. I drink my morning coffee while contemplating my day and spending quiet time being grateful for my life and the people I have in it.

 

I’ve not been out of the house all week. Since I was supposed to be out of town, I had no lunches or dinners with friends scheduled. No appointments. And no trips to the library, post office or gas station to complete.

 

I’ve slowly de-Christmased my surroundings without rushing the process and feeling stressed.

 

I have made lists of things I’d like to accomplish this year. But I’ve tried to be realistic about how much I can accomplish and how I can manage smaller chunks rather than attempting to make big sweeping changes.

 

Look. I’m never going to be the water-and-cardboard-diet-loving kind of person. But I can make small changes that will improve my health. And I’m never going to live in an HGTV kind of home because I have junk closets (not just drawers). But I can tackle those closets a little at a time until I’m satisfied with what possessions I keep and how they are stored.

 

We spend so much of our adult lives trying to be, well, adults. Responsible. Taking care of the things we’re supposed to take care of. And most of the time, we do these things because we ARE adults and we take those responsibilities seriously.

 

If you’re a parent, well, forget about it. You won’t have this chance for many years. Same if you’re still working. If you take a week off and decide on a “staycation,” you’re still trying to get projects completed around the house that you can’t get done on the weekend.

 

So I get it. Not many people have this opportunity. But this little sabbatical of mine has been rare and wonderful and I’ve been so grateful I could manage it.

 

But now I’m starting to get the itch to go back to my “normal” life. To get out and about. To see my friends and catch up. And even to get back to the gym, which I started going back to a month ago to rebuild some lost muscle on these old bones.

 


And I have to say – I missed Maggie Minx more than I thought I would. Well, perhaps not the nightly restriction of rolling over without dislodging a sleepy Yorkie. But the rest of it. Our multiple daily walks. And having her warm little body nap on my legs while I read a book or binge-watch Netflix.

 

But I won’t be watching Firefly Lane. I finished it this week. And not that bottle of Ménage à Trois Soft Red blend. I’ll wait until I have a friend over to share it with.

 

If you ever get the chance to have a deliberate sabbatical – even if it’s just for a weekend – I highly recommend it.

 

Now if you’ll excuse me, it appears to be dog-walking time.

 

And just like that – sabbatical over.

 

Sunday, January 1, 2023

New Year, New Possibilities

 


As the clock ticks down the final hour of 2022, I just thought I’d take a moment to say thank you to the many people in my life who have offered support and love during this first full year without my Vince.

 

Even if I haven’t specifically said it, you have made a difference – and I’m grateful to you.

 

I have had moments where I am still fully immersed in my grief as if he had just passed and I wonder why it seems as if I haven’t made any progress on this grief journey whatsoever.

 

And I have also had moments where I’ve experienced the joy that this life holds and I’m thankful to be alive.

 

It is in those moments that I have to remind myself that it’s okay to be joyful. And that Vince would have wanted me to be happy.

 

I didn’t set any specific goals for myself when the calendar changed from 2021 to 2022. I didn’t make any New Year’s Resolutions. And I had no idea what the year would have in store for me.

 

I was still more or less in shock that the love of my life was gone and that I had to go on without him. So it was about all I could do to hang on and make it through the days, weeks and months this year.

 

But now as we head into a brand-new year, I am trying to think positively. I am working on a list of things I’d like to learn and what I can accomplish and ways I can better myself. To propel my life forward.

 

It’s a good feeling. Making plans. Looking forward instead of looking down.

 

Will there be moments I get stuck? Probably. Will there be moments I don’t want to work on myself or my goals? Uh, yeah. I’m sure that will happen.

 


But at this very moment, I’m heading into 2023 with a positive attitude.

 

Wish me success, okay?

 

And I wish the same for you. Happy New Year, my friends. Be well!